Not going to lie, this just feels like it's not happening. I feel like I am going through a host of motions -- surgery here, follow-up there. But CANCER? In ME? This just can't be. It's such an invisible demon.
Or is it? I had my follow-up appointment on the 17th and took my first post-surgery ultrasound. Dr.Gross called me with results on Friday, saying that the Radiologist spotted a 6mm "indiscriminate" node on the left side of my neck where the original mass was (removed 1-Feb). Specifically, he told me not to worry about it, that'd we'd use that measurement for benchmarking purposes, but nothing seemed off to him. I judiciously wrote down what he was telling me and was 'fine' with it. Until I hung up the phone. From the moment it said 'disconnected' so too was my head from my heart and the latter simply sunk. I don't want to ride this roller-coaster. I just want to get off.
I was able to book my next appt. for 24-May and will be looking at Iodine Radiation Therapy, likely in mid-June.
Or is it? I had my follow-up appointment on the 17th and took my first post-surgery ultrasound. Dr.Gross called me with results on Friday, saying that the Radiologist spotted a 6mm "indiscriminate" node on the left side of my neck where the original mass was (removed 1-Feb). Specifically, he told me not to worry about it, that'd we'd use that measurement for benchmarking purposes, but nothing seemed off to him. I judiciously wrote down what he was telling me and was 'fine' with it. Until I hung up the phone. From the moment it said 'disconnected' so too was my head from my heart and the latter simply sunk. I don't want to ride this roller-coaster. I just want to get off.
I was able to book my next appt. for 24-May and will be looking at Iodine Radiation Therapy, likely in mid-June.
- T-minus 2 weeks: iodine-free diet
- T-minus 2 days: Thyroglobulin shot to the butt
- T-minus 1 day: Thyroglobulin shot to the butt
- Day 0: Hospital admit, pill swallow; isolation & overnight
- Day 1: Geiger counter scan & hospital discharge
- Days 2-3: Modified isolation (adults 10mins 2-3x/day; no pets or small children)
- Day 4+: Like nothing ever happened
I suppose the whole thing could be worse, but I'm writing with my head attached to my heart. For now.
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